A certain sadness...

I have been feeling a little sadness for several days now and most of my friends don't quite notice it because I simply know how to handle myself in front of them.  In fact, they would always see me as the funny one who has no qualms in making fun of myself.  Friends do see as someone who is very strong willed and very sure of what I want and who I am.  But these feeling of sadness lurks just before I will retire to bed, it's a feeling that really hit to my very core.  I have been wanting to really face this but I kept on pushing it.  I have been wanting to dissect and see my options to finally overcome this feeling of sadness.

Desperately, I pray for more time and discernment because I still believe in my heart that HE has grand plans for me...plans that are even better of what I think is good for me.  I hope that day will come that I will be able to deal with this certain sadness...

And you think I can't bake...hmmmp!

Just recently I bought a Lagermania oven thinking and hoping to bake a cake one day.  So now that I am in the process of learning how to cook and bake,  it just amazes me everytime I see my end product and even more excited if people do taste what I bake and cook.  Most especially if it turn out just perfect!  It's a feeling of fulfillment and joy (babaw noh).

Since I was little, I used to watched my aunties baked their goodies either for family or sometimes they would sell it.  And I envy them (in a good way), because cooking is very second nature to them.  Even my mother, she is indeed a very good cook, not only because she's my mom and she's Kapampangan but you should really get hold of her "TO DIE FOR" Beef Mechado, Adobong Pusit, Pansit Guisado and many more.

Now that I am baking, I really do find joy in these menial things....easy as you may think and say...but hey...look who's baking now.

Let's go to bed already...

I am so excited for my kids to open their Christmas presents later...YES I AM! Sssshhh...got them the one present that they ever wanted....ROCKBAND (Beatles Limited Edition) plus bought another CD game for them to choose several songs just in case they got tired of playing with Beatles songs.  Ooooppsss the surprise doesn't ends there yet...I had the Nintendo Wii wrapped also.  I got the Limited Edition (Color Red)! Yes, my friends I got the red one har har har!!!

So you think after the Mass and Noche Buena we are going to bed already? I don't think so!

Christmas and Me

Christmas is one of the most celebrated event and I must say that this is my favorite holiday also.  Not only because of certain gift giving but simply because Christmas makes you feel a little melancholic and makes you re-think about the things that you had done for this year.  Whether you're being unconditional and giving to the people that you love.  Christmas never fails me to feel this way, a little edgy, sad, happy and excited to see good old friends, amazed to see kids on how their eyes widely open with excitement when they open gifts, and most of all the fun part...got to taste all the goodies during Noche Buena especially our classic ham with pandesal and hot Batirol (native chocoloate drink) and of course not to forget my ever favorite garbanzos with suman....yummmm!!!

So now, I am feeling all of these...Christmas and Me

Vanity in you

I was privileged enough to have undergone a Scelortheraphy (treatment for varicose veins) yesterday.  These varicose veins or spider veins are somewhat annoying specially when you are fond of wearing skimpy shorts or what we call the "pokpok shorts" or even wearing mini skirts. I have putting this off for quite some time well aside from the fact that it is quite costly, I really need to allocate time to do so.  The procedure is a little bit painful because they have to inject needles on each of the veins to make them disappear.  Well, as they all say...NO PAIN, NO GAIN! Hahaha! After my session with Dra. Sy I can immediately see the results and I was truly amazed.  Indeed the spiders in my legs are all gone. Am I going to miss them? Hahaha!!! I don't think so!

So now, off to the mall with my pokpok shorts again!

Want to be a Rock Star?

Recently, I bought my two boys an xbox and they have been asking me to buy that for quite some time.  Our deal was to give me good grades and in return I will reward them with an xbox.

Having one and actually playing with it made me realize how fun it is play again with these gadget.  I remember last time we used to have the Sony Playstation One and we were sooooo hooked then...hahaha! Now, the fun never stops just owning a console but instead; you invest on CD's and keep on upgrading your skills and achievements on your favorite games.

It's interesting to know that my boys knows how to convince me to buy this new xbox game called "Rock Band 3"as their Christmas present because they know very well that I love to sing in karaoke.  The Rock Band 3 allows you to play musical instruments i.e. drums, electric guitar, keyboard and sing like a pro using the bundled microphone.  This is also a good way to create a special bond with your kids and spend some quality time with them.

I wonder when will these game be available in the market.  I hope it's soon as I plan to give them as my Christmas present for my two boys.

Letting go...

Been contemplating if I am to let you go.  We started our engagement early last year and we were both optimistic about what we have.  You will be completely mine five years from now, while you on the other hand waits and sits beautifully where the sun faces you.  Today, I have to make a choice and not a decision to completely let you go because I plan to embrace something new.

Goodbye to you...La Residencia

What can I give you this Christmas?

I remember my mom would always ask me this question since I was little child.  And she would often ask me to at least give her at least three choices for her to choose from as their Christmas gift.  It is indeed a wonderful feeling everytime that I would get the things that I want especially on Christmas day.

This question brings me to a feeling of being able to give love unconditionally.  I believe that the true essence of giving lies in making the other person happy.  No matter how small or simple the gift maybe but as long as you give with a joyful heart that for me is the best gift one you could ever give.