A certain sadness...

I have been feeling a little sadness for several days now and most of my friends don't quite notice it because I simply know how to handle myself in front of them.  In fact, they would always see me as the funny one who has no qualms in making fun of myself.  Friends do see as someone who is very strong willed and very sure of what I want and who I am.  But these feeling of sadness lurks just before I will retire to bed, it's a feeling that really hit to my very core.  I have been wanting to really face this but I kept on pushing it.  I have been wanting to dissect and see my options to finally overcome this feeling of sadness.

Desperately, I pray for more time and discernment because I still believe in my heart that HE has grand plans for me...plans that are even better of what I think is good for me.  I hope that day will come that I will be able to deal with this certain sadness...

And you think I can't bake...hmmmp!

Just recently I bought a Lagermania oven thinking and hoping to bake a cake one day.  So now that I am in the process of learning how to cook and bake,  it just amazes me everytime I see my end product and even more excited if people do taste what I bake and cook.  Most especially if it turn out just perfect!  It's a feeling of fulfillment and joy (babaw noh).

Since I was little, I used to watched my aunties baked their goodies either for family or sometimes they would sell it.  And I envy them (in a good way), because cooking is very second nature to them.  Even my mother, she is indeed a very good cook, not only because she's my mom and she's Kapampangan but you should really get hold of her "TO DIE FOR" Beef Mechado, Adobong Pusit, Pansit Guisado and many more.

Now that I am baking, I really do find joy in these menial things....easy as you may think and say...but hey...look who's baking now.

Let's go to bed already...

I am so excited for my kids to open their Christmas presents later...YES I AM! Sssshhh...got them the one present that they ever wanted....ROCKBAND (Beatles Limited Edition) plus bought another CD game for them to choose several songs just in case they got tired of playing with Beatles songs.  Ooooppsss the surprise doesn't ends there yet...I had the Nintendo Wii wrapped also.  I got the Limited Edition (Color Red)! Yes, my friends I got the red one har har har!!!

So you think after the Mass and Noche Buena we are going to bed already? I don't think so!

Christmas and Me

Christmas is one of the most celebrated event and I must say that this is my favorite holiday also.  Not only because of certain gift giving but simply because Christmas makes you feel a little melancholic and makes you re-think about the things that you had done for this year.  Whether you're being unconditional and giving to the people that you love.  Christmas never fails me to feel this way, a little edgy, sad, happy and excited to see good old friends, amazed to see kids on how their eyes widely open with excitement when they open gifts, and most of all the fun part...got to taste all the goodies during Noche Buena especially our classic ham with pandesal and hot Batirol (native chocoloate drink) and of course not to forget my ever favorite garbanzos with suman....yummmm!!!

So now, I am feeling all of these...Christmas and Me