Season, Reason or for a Lifetime

For days now, I am contemplating whether I should respond to the letter that I got from this person who really broke my heart. It's actually a short letter saying how sorry he was with all the things that has happened and how things are between me and him.

I felt that the letter was not something that I would be happy and it's also not something that I am mad about. In fact, I think I lost it already. I lost the feelings that I once strongly have for him.

I felt him when I was reading his message, I felt his regret over the fact that these things happened, I felt that he is truly and did care for me but the truth is...it's was never enough. Not enough to fight for whatever we have.

On the day that I saw his email message, I was surprised because I never really expect him to send that letter of sorry and asking for forgiveness. I felt sad for him because I have accepted the fact that there's no US anymore. I wasn't sorry for what happened because I learned to accept and moved on with my life. If I may share, this was one wish granted by St. Jude. I pray for serenity and clarity for my decision and he did lead the way.

A poet once say that people do come into your life....either they are for a season, reason or for a lifetime. For years, I made myself believe that he's for a lifetime because he's so close to perfect. But now I do know that he's just a season and a reason for me to believe that once upon a time...somebody loved me so much, somebody cared for me so much, somebody adored me so much and since that somebody is already gone. I have my whole lifetime to take delight and do whatever it takes without limitations and be happy and enjoy my journey in life.

Shopping...a stress buster sport

Yesterday, we went to the mall with one end in mind....to simply watch I AM NUMBER FOUR. We arrived around 4:45 and was thinking of doing some window shopping first or have an early dinner since the movie wouldn't start 'till 6:00pm or we can go for the 9:00pm slot. Well, it didn't surprised me much when only a few hours had gone by and I already had some paper bags in my hand...hahahaha! My boys went crazy when we pass by Data Blitz and of course ask me to buy them new Xbox games. Then we pass by Power MAC center and with enough "lambing" and some persuasion; I bought RJ his Skull Candy headphone. As for me, I cannot resist the computer bag that I have been eying. That bag has been calling me...buy me buy me...hahaha!

It's almost dinner time when we went to Shoe Salon and found this comfortable slip ons....good thing my boys said..."Mom, let's eat first and think it over" Wheew!!! I almost bought those pairs.

Oh well, who said shopping isn't fun and a true stress buster.

Until our next shopping.